Middle Child Syndrome or Depression?

I’m not to sure if in my case I would be the middle child due to my mom having four children, but the point is I’m not sure if I’m having middle child syndrome effects. The reason why all three of my siblings graduated high school and i didn’t or why I’m 20 and still have not had my own car and still haven’t had my own room. I’m still haven’t got my ged and from time to time my mom will speak to me about it but then just changes subjects like it’s a big deal but it’s not anything she will help me to fix. I am the black sheep of my family for 1 I’m gay 2 I smoke weed 3 am the only one with thoughts of suicide. that’s when i question if that is middle child syndrome or just effects of depression?
– porchia

Hi porchia. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Yes, it seems that you are suffering from middle child syndrome. You must be aware that it all started from being ignored and unloved. Being gay or smoking weed, that is not who you are. Believe me I know how hard it is to live with that. Just stay clean and spend time with your friends. We believe in you, may God watch over you.