My Life as a Middle Child

Well I have 2 older sisters and two younger sisters I am the middle child. My life as a middle child has not been happy and I guess will never be until I am on my own and move far far away! Here’s my story: When I was really young like at the age of 6, maybe 7 was when I realized how tough it is to be a middle child. It was when my sisters decided to play a game involving teams well my eldest sister teamed up with my youngest sister and my other 2 sisters teamed up and I couldn’t play because I didn’t have a team mate! So i just sat on the side and watch my sister’s laugh and play while I sat and wish to not be the middle child the one left out the forgotten one. The older I got the more I realized I didn’t actually fit in with my family. My older sisters got all the attention I wanted from my mom and my two younger ones got away with anything. Megan whom is 2 yrs younger than me and isn’t the baby but acts like one use to and still does pretend that I hurt her or said something and of course my dad would believe her she never got in trouble for anything. I on the other hand was blamed for anything and everything that was done wrong. When my eldest sister moved out and my 2nd older sister Caroline took over and became the suck up 2 my mom. I am fixing to turn 16 and I am begging for my mom’s attention yet she doesn’t care. Because Caroline is so attached to my mom she doesn’t even know I exist!!

My parents never came to any of my award ceremony’s none of my school orientation nothing! The reason why was because my older sisters had went to their school orientation’s and my parents came to theirs so they said that they knew what is going to be about therefore it was pointless to go! Well since they didn’t go 2 my 6th grade school orientation on the first day of 6th grade I had no idea where my classroom was or where to go I walked around hopelessly until the principal saw me and said i was late for my class and lecture me on how I shouldn’t be late on the first day of school then he finally pointed me in the direction I needed to go. Oh and in 7th grade when I won a scholarship to the community college for free since my older sister got one my parents didn’t even go to my ceremony that was a big deal because it was about my outstanding excellence in academics and that’s why I won it! But they didn’t care they wouldn’t waste the time to go to something if they went to it with the older ones! But get this my younger sister Megan when she was going into middle school for the first time my parents went to her 6th grade school orientation!! But they didn’t go to MINE!!!

I try everything to gain some attention from my parents but fail at it every time! I do so well in school but they don’t care. I brought home straight A’s and my mom looked at my report card and said ok? But my younger sister brought her card home and made 3 F’s and one D so my mom goes “Oh my god honey you did so good!! Since you did well on your report card you get to choose where to eat tonight.” I was like WTF?? I make straight A’s and get an ok and she brings home F’s and a D and she gets congratulated!!

It really sucks being the middle child. Being the one that gets blamed for everything, being the one who is neglected, being the one who is left out the one whom everyone thinks is the trouble maker the one who they think is a mistake. I still feel like sometimes I was adopted and I want to believe that but i know it’s not true it’s just a sad little lie I tell myself to make myself feel better. It’s really hard on me because i push myself so far that I am at the breaking part to try to impress my parents! I have learned to be completely self motivated because my parents don’t push me to do anything but be like my other sisters they always compare to my other sisters and ask why I can’t be more like them why I can’t be act like them why I can’t just be like them NEWSFLASH I’M NOT THEM I AM ME!!

On my 15 birthday I didn’t even get a birthday cake, a card, gift NOTHING! Because on my birthday it was the day of my older sister Caroline’s Prom so I didn’t even get a happy birthday from my mom or dad, So you know what I had to do I took myself into the kitchen and got one of those Debbie cake cupcakes then I got a candle lit it and had a b-day party all by myself I sat at the counter crying over my cupcake wishing I had someone who actually cared for me.

I am not sure if being the middle child makes you stronger or weaker I believe it makes you stronger for the fact that my dad hit me across the face once because I started off to him I didn’t cry I stood there and took it but my older sister once when he yelled at her for something she started bawling and whining. I can take way more than my sisters there so weak and so fragile but I am stronger than them I can take the heat I can stand there and take someone screaming at me and not even flinch!

I have became way more independent ever since I was 10 years old and my parents left me at home and took my sisters with them because I told them I didn’t want to go to the stupid parade with them because my sisters each got a dollar and I didn’t get one because my older sister swore I took money from her and I didn’t so my punishment was that I didn’t get a dollar to spend at the parade well I stayed home alone while they went and spent like 4 hours at the parade! I had to cook supper for myself so I went in and cook peas, mac-&-cheese with nuggets I learned from then on that I would be defending for myself for the rest of my life and that is just how I have been doing since then.

Being a middle child shouldn’t be like this i shouldn’t have had to felt sorry for myself and sometime pack my bags then climb out my window and plan to leave and go somewhere else where I would be loved. I shouldn’t have had to pray to God that he would take me outta this world. Or believe that I was adopted I shouldn’t have to go through all of this NO ONE should!!! It’s quite sad how much trauma it is on a middle child yet everyone just believes that we are just jealous and wanting attention and always think about themselves!

GUESS WHAT?????? They are partly right! We do want attention really bad and if they show some to us we wouldn’t want it as bad!! We DO get jealous I am not going to lie we do but it’s for the fact that our siblings get stuff we don’t have they either gets treated like angels and we are the demons or they get all the attention and we would just die to have one day in their shoes!! Also middle child people don’t have the time to think about themselves because there to busy thinking about how they could get their parents attention and at least some affection!!

I HAVE AN IDEA 4 PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT MIDDLE CHILD PEOPLE ARE THESE TYPES OF PEOPLE HOW ABOUT YOU TRY 2 AT LEAST IMAGINE BEING THE ONE LEFT OUT THE ONE NO ONE CARES ABOUT THE ONE WHO HAS TO DEFEND FOR THEMSELVES THE ONES EVERYONE HATES!!!!!!!!!! TRY THAT BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING!

Kam